trapped

do you ever feel trapped?

my feelings at the beginning of the year were so distorted and overwhelming which led me to take a step back from teaching with a view to resign...

now that i have had time to talk to someone i don't feel so desperate. my BIL is doing well, he had a check up yesterday to be told that the tumors had not changed since stopping chemo 2 months ago so we have a little ray of hope...but i am left with this sense of what have i done?? i am thoroughly enjoying relief teaching and am hoping that the bosses in catholic education give me the nod to have next year off as well. as much as i am enjoying the time at home and the days of teaching here and there i have a new load of guilt to bear...society is set up in a way in which it is impossible for a family of 5 to survive on one wage, the weeks that i don't get a day of teaching we barely have enough money in the bank for bread and milk. i don't mean to whinge and i know that we are all in the same boat but why does it have to be this way? why cant i just be a housewife and relief teacher and not have the guilt?? a night fill job would be ideal especially over the school holidays when i will be bringing in zero dollars...that is my next step and ASAP.

well my fellow bloggers, thanks for your support and a shoulder to cry on...

maybe one day the cage door will open and i will be set free.

xxrosey

happy unhappy day

having a blue day?? well let this story teach you that with a little love and support even the bluest days can turn purple :)

there once was a hard working, dedicated and all round gorgeous guy who was feeling down about the monkeys that he had to teach day in day out. now these monkeys are no ordinary monkeys they are the teenage type..yep those who think they know everything and have a hard time listening to direction and have manners of a pig. sensing the blues were on their way a little angel whispered into my ear...

why don't you make today happy unhappy day and turn that frown upside down?!?

what a brilliant idea, we decided to make a scrummy pie...

and take our mr blue over to mr happy and cheer him up with some fine conversation and tasty pie.

mr happy did a wonderful job of making us laugh and we went away feeling much better than when we first arrived but that was not all that we had in store...

our sweet neighbour from across the road invited us over for a traditional curry, so armed with wine and sweet treats we made the short trek across the street and had a wonderful night full of conversation and laughter..

these two faces could make anyone happy!

then to top off our happy unhappy day we presented mr blue with the second passion fruit from our vine

and guess what?

yes you guessed it he found his smile.

our happy unhappy day lasted all weekend and mr blue said that the following week was so much better and that he is not feeling stressed at all.

the angel was right, love and support is all that you need to get you through the darkest days.

xxx

blue day

do you ever feel low? do you ever have days when no matter how hard you try you just cant feel happy? you want to curl up and forget about your troubles but you know you just cant...i have and so did my poor mister moo a few weeks ago. so to cheer him up we... picked some flowers and put them into thrifted miniature vases (lili has a very good eye for pretties)

we baked some heart shaped cakes and decorated them with tiny hearts and

sweet words.

and we sang a cheer up song!

blogger wouldnt let me load the video but we sang cheer up daddy to the tune of happy birthday :)

so if you are ever feeling blue you know where to come...l

and then a day off work the next day is highly recommended to let all of the cheering up really sink in!!

hope that all your days are yellow

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