trapped

do you ever feel trapped?

my feelings at the beginning of the year were so distorted and overwhelming which led me to take a step back from teaching with a view to resign...

now that i have had time to talk to someone i don't feel so desperate. my BIL is doing well, he had a check up yesterday to be told that the tumors had not changed since stopping chemo 2 months ago so we have a little ray of hope...but i am left with this sense of what have i done?? i am thoroughly enjoying relief teaching and am hoping that the bosses in catholic education give me the nod to have next year off as well. as much as i am enjoying the time at home and the days of teaching here and there i have a new load of guilt to bear...society is set up in a way in which it is impossible for a family of 5 to survive on one wage, the weeks that i don't get a day of teaching we barely have enough money in the bank for bread and milk. i don't mean to whinge and i know that we are all in the same boat but why does it have to be this way? why cant i just be a housewife and relief teacher and not have the guilt?? a night fill job would be ideal especially over the school holidays when i will be bringing in zero dollars...that is my next step and ASAP.

well my fellow bloggers, thanks for your support and a shoulder to cry on...

maybe one day the cage door will open and i will be set free.

xxrosey

my other blog

just incase you didnt know i had one..here it tis itty bitty and pretty

broken

this went 'snap'

this went 'pop'

they say it comes in 3's..whats next??

all systems go...

hello my little friends, i can let you in on my little secret and if you click here you can even see what our new shop looks like (without all of our goodies inside of course).

DRUM ROLL PLEASE

Renata and i will be spreading our pretties out in some rooms of Couts Cottage in Petrie Market Town with the one and only Linda of Lilly Cottage!!

granted the shop wont be as big as LILLY COTTAGE was but it will have the same feel and Renata and i will add our little touches and i expect we will grow as crafters as well. so expect more of the same and new products as well. having a space means that we don't have to think of the elements which at times determines what we make and take to the markets. this way Renata can display her jewelery and art work without the wind knocking over her displays!

it really is going to be a grand experience, Renata and i both made a commitment of a full year to this market stall when we began in May this year and now with this newest development we will be able to extend that commitment...of course there is no way this could be a reality without joining forces with Linda. she has the credibility, business sense and reputation that we lack but we will not let her down, this is going to work and look great at the same time!

now all we need is to fit out the shop with shelving and cupboards and have a 'staff' meeting to iron out all the workings of the shop...it really is exciting to say the least. it feels like i am inching closer to my dream job!

all i can think about is the shop and with that in mind i am going to be doing up an old cot to turn it into a day bed of sorts which will act as a cupboard on which we can display cushions and string some of my heart garlands. we also thrifted this shelf..

which i will paint and 'shabby up' to house some of the smaller trinkets and art works. it has hooks on the back so it can be hung or stand wherever we feel fit.

tools ready... i will post an after shot for sure.

so if you live locally and feel a visit is in order come to Old Petrie Town and visit Lilly Cottage and Friends, we will open the doors the last Sunday of this month the 29th of August.

i can tell mumma cat is really impressed :) pretty isnt she?

childs play

my screen saver at the moment is the photo below.

i created a 'light box' of sorts to use outside when taking photos of my products and little miss Claudia just had to 'play' with some of my props. i just love her chubby little fingers and if only you could have heard her made up conversation with the little people. when my girls play together it is pure bliss to listen to and watch. of course 70% of the time they are bickering which i assume is NORMAL.

anyhow here is lilis first 'patient'...

poor old Sid needed emergency care as he fell off the bed and broke a few bones...

even his tail was injured. lili has a certain number of toys on her bed at all times and in a certain order. reminds me of when i was younger and i would surround myself with the toys to keep the monster under my bed from reaching me. 0_o

and then there is this wonderful show on the ABC that is called 'Mr Maker' which runs for about 20mins and this fabulous guy shows the viewers how to make great little pieces of art and craft. i have often thought that as a teacher it would make a valuable resource to view the program and then have the materials at hand then let the children create! if you get the chance watch it, 2:45pm on ABC2.

i tape the show for the girls as it is school pick up time and when they get a chance they watch it and create :) look at these wonderful 'box creatures' that they made all by themselves...

Claudia's skinny twin :)

ooohhh arrrgggg I'm going to eat you!

how gosh darn cute is that!

i have lots of memories from my childhood and now i am watching my girls make their own memories. SWEET!

i have some news to share but i will only share half of the news until it is official...my market buddy Renata and i will be renting a space out at petrie markets which means no more packing and unpacking, we wont have to worry about the weather and part of my dream is coming true....of course we wont be in this space alone but that surprise will have to wait! very exciting!!

happy Wednesday

xxrosey

tuesdays treasures ~one day late~

playing along with Clare once again i have chosen to show some items that are dear to me. each of these items hold sentimental value to me and are quite old...

this ring belonged to my maternal grandmother Jane Morgan and i believe it was her eternity ring. each of my sisters received a ring from my grandmother Jane as well, which leads me to my next photo and a task that i need to attend to post haste.

these rose gold cuff links belonged to my grandfather Arthur Samuel Morgan (as you can see the initials are engraved) and my husband wore these on our wedding day. i am assuming they belong to my brother which would make sense that we received a ring and he received these links. they are still in my possession from our wedding day which is nearing 10 years now and i should really return them to my brother. the sad thing is that we had a falling out about 3 years ago and i am afraid that if i post them and he throws the letter away without reading it they might be lost forever...i will have to think of a way of getting them to him without such a catastrophe happening....

the last piece and most dearest piece of all is a locket the belonged to my mother Joyce Beverly Morgan (maiden name of course) given to her by Jane and Arthur who are pictured in the locket...when i look at it my heart fills with love, what a gorgeous gift for a young girl to receive. my eldest sister gifted it to me on my wedding day as my 'something old' and i wore it close to my heart. when i hold it i think of a man i never met...a woman who i got to love until god took her at the age of 94 and my mother who died far too young (39) but was obviously loved very much by her sister and adoring parents.

thank you for sharing in my treasures, be sure to head to Clare's craftroom and see all of the other treasures to be found.

xxxrosey

whats in your garden?

we are convinced that we have fairies in our garden...we know for a fact that they use our hollow log as a school cause they told us in one of their many notes they have left on our window sill. while i was out taking some pictures for my online shop i snapped a few of my Mia getting the rock garden in order for our special visitors. i was being sneaky, she didn't know i was taking these photos... making a rocky path to the hotel door. ooops. she caught me! i cant imagine how luxurious this hotel must seem to visiting fairies! isnt she sweet, how could any fairy refuse a room at this house??

before i go, we had a quiet day at the markets on Sunday. it seemed to rain softly the whole day which wasn't great for sales but we both went home in profit so for that i am thankful. Renata's work is wonderful. if you haven't visited her blog please do you wont be disappointed.

here is a shot of some of my items for sale. the two mixed media fairy canvases were bought by two of the cutest little girls. one with brown hair and one with red hair!! and of course a little girl who was told by her mother to come back and buy it later was sad when she came back to find it was gone...guess i will be making a few more of those :)

anyhow. best go and watch my Mia dance, she has been begging me since i hopped on here.

xxrosey